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I'M BACK !!!!!!!!!

my friend jane has just pointed out to me that i have'nt updated my lj in a while so i'm dedicating this to her. Well not much has happened i just found out corey hill (one of CCHS's Alumni) killed himself i really did'nt know him but it's still sad he commited suicide which was a shock beause he really did'nt look like the kind of person to do that... it just goes to show that we need to pay close attention to our friends and family because they could be in pain and we may not even know it... well to those who read this pray for his family and remember life is to short to be sad smile and be nice to everyone because you don't know who's going through what and one smile can make all the differance in the world

Peace and love to you all


P.S RIP corey hill you will be missed
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homophobia is wrong...

i just read this off of someone's live journal and it made me cry i decided to post it in hopes that someone will read it and know what homopobia can do...

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong.
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    Evanescence -Missing
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well i'm feeling a bit depressed because it seems i'm being avoided by someone (we'll just call him js)but i just got done reading some fanfiction so i'm feeling a little bit better

yes yaoi makes everything ALLLLLLLLLL better...

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    pretty ricky- ain't nothing but a number
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well i thought i was getting off from work yesterday but it seems not i was called in but it wasn't that bad i get off today and tomarrow so it's alright i guess downloaded the opening to blubirds illusion I LOVE IT i really want the game but damn it's banned in china there is a contest in one of the community's i joined and i can win it i decided to do the fanfic contest i have to rewrite one of the endings of the game so i'm off to go think of a plot WISH ME LUCK !!!!!

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    moments-bluebirds illusion opening song
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cruel and unusual punishiment

well it's been A WHILE since i've updated but now that i have a computer with internet i'll start updating more anyway nuttin much going on i've been working at burger king for the last three weeks... and i've learned one thing men are DISGUSTING !!! i was forced to clean the men's bathroom and it was gross ! you'd think that that i think about it there aren't that many boys working... but that doesn't matter it was still nasty on other matters i got my schedule for the year and i hate it they gave me a bunch of crap classes not to mention the same teacher who failed me and is the reason i have to take 4 MATH'S THIS YEAR !!!! ARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGG i'm so pissed right now well i g2g i'm tired but thank God i don't have to work tomorrow


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only 5 more days !!!!!!

well i'm officialy on the countdown till the end of school i needed an excuse to write in my lj since i couldn't find anything to write about so uh... i guess that's it...

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    noise from the chours room
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just because i'm bored... QUIZZES

You Are Mulan!

Strong and spirited. You're no one's girly girl; actually you are a tomboy with a strong sense of self. Never let go of that! The only thing that equals your sense of self is your family, but the traditions of society can always be bent to protect something you love.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

b>Evil Poke Opportunity</b>

(Nice job... you are obviously very cool. Or you cheated.)

What would your band be named

Edward Elric

Which Fullmetal Alchemist Character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

(grins like mad) Yay i got ed !!!... ok so i cheated...leave me alone

well uh that's kinda it for now so uh bye


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    you are the sunshine of my life-steve wonder
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PROM !!!!!

well today is i guess i should be excited i'm going with jj ...go figure ... but anywho nothing interesting other than that i just needed an excuse to write in my lj that's it

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love suxs....

wuz up today is valentine's day the worst day ever i hate valentine's day and right now my friend is making fun if me cuz i can't spell she's making me sad ....but anyway nutting other than that

my life is boring

i sent a candygram to myself yea i'm that pitiful

g2g before i become too dumb to spell anyting


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    these are a few of my favorite things-micheal jackson